Wednesday, January 18, 2006
The New Plan
Day 1 of my new plan to stop eating to fill the emotional void inside of me and my department ordered in breakfast. Shit! I had already stopped at Pret a Manger for my delicious but nutritious breakfast- their yogurt, granola and honey pot, but there before me were bagels.... Not just any bagels, but sesame bagels, my favorite, and veggie cream cheese. Oh the temptation! Get this- I only ate 1/4 of a bagel (with a smidge of cream cheese), then loaded up on the fresh fruit. Which is especially a feat considering that I didn't eat anything after I got home from the gym last night and was absolutely starving this morning.
Have I mentioned that, as a general rule, food is a problem for me? I'm not a crazy eat-a-gallon-of-ice-cream-in-one-sitting type of person, but I don't have good eating habits. I eat really late, I often skip breakfast because I'm just too lazy, and a lot of my meals include either Doritos or french fries. When I've had a bad day- I will eat especially bad because I feel like I deserve it. If I've had a good day, I celebrate with food- generally Doritos or french fries.
What really sucks is that I've got a body that if I don't eat right all the time and exercise almost every day, I balloon like the Stay-Puff Marshmallow man. I like to blame genetics, because quite frankly, mine hate me. But really, I've just got very low will power and self-discipline.
It's time to put an end to the vicious cycle. I'm never going to get will power if I don't start exercising it.
And so begins a new phase of my life. I'm taking a break from men- cutting them all out of my life and focusing on me, my will power and the lack thereof.
Have I mentioned that, as a general rule, food is a problem for me? I'm not a crazy eat-a-gallon-of-ice-cream-in-one-sitting type of person, but I don't have good eating habits. I eat really late, I often skip breakfast because I'm just too lazy, and a lot of my meals include either Doritos or french fries. When I've had a bad day- I will eat especially bad because I feel like I deserve it. If I've had a good day, I celebrate with food- generally Doritos or french fries.
What really sucks is that I've got a body that if I don't eat right all the time and exercise almost every day, I balloon like the Stay-Puff Marshmallow man. I like to blame genetics, because quite frankly, mine hate me. But really, I've just got very low will power and self-discipline.
It's time to put an end to the vicious cycle. I'm never going to get will power if I don't start exercising it.
And so begins a new phase of my life. I'm taking a break from men- cutting them all out of my life and focusing on me, my will power and the lack thereof.
